Its 2012....
Wow, time flies...
2011 was to say the least a weird one... Started off with a new relationship then a change in my financial life, Followed by a few unwanted surprises and ended with 3 broken ribs... all in all, not my best year.
No regrets thou....
I find myself surrounded by people obsessed with New Years Resolutions. I never understood that... why does the start of a New Year mean you need to change something? Can’t people make these changes anytime? Or is it that the hope of a brand new start gives them courage to change?
I don’t feel that need (I mean, yeah of course there are things in my life that need changing... or so people tell me). I don’t feel the need to make drastic changes just because I took another spin around the sun.... Saying that I am UBER proud of a few of my friends for the things they are doing... one in particular...
So I find I am a little inspired. Inspired enough to attempt to change some things in my life. In the past I have tackled things like weight loss, smoking, drinking, and saving money... all ended in failure. However I am not going to let these past failures stop me from trying again. It was Thomas Edison that said “I have not failed. I've just found ten thousand ways that won't work” that’s my new life motto... I will treat the past not as failures, but as learning experiences on how NOT to do things.
I will attempt to change eating habits, the amount in which I drink, putting a tighter grip on needless spending and of course the dreaded cigarette. If I can alter my habits even a little it will be for the best.
Drastic changes are bad... Drastic changes in ones habits promote failure... So I am not quitting anything... no, I am simply changing the amount in which I do it. Putting a bold statement out there saying I will never smoke again (something I admit to in the past) is just hurting myself. Anyone, when told they can’t do something finds the urge to do it more so than before.
I won’t say I am quitting smoking, I WILL say I am gonna try to cut back the amount of cigarettes I have. I won’t say I am going on a diet, I WILL say I’ll cut back on junk food. This way I am not setting myself up for failure, this way I am slowing changing the things in my life that I have negative effects. Hopefully my new approach will also make it easier on me.
The other thing I need to work on is my personal life. I have a crippling fear of dating. In the past everything relationship I have been in has ended poorly (well for me anyways). This has caused me to put up a wall that stops me from asking women out. Not talking to mind you, just the asking out on a date part. My plan thus far in life has just been to wander around and hope I fall into a relationship, and no surprise it’s not working. There are 2 different women in my life right now that I could/should ask out on a date. However, the fear is winning... out of all the things I need to change, this is by far the hardest. Not sure how I am gonna tackle this one, but believe me it is something I want to change.
If anyone reading this is making changes in their life... CONGRATS!!! And if you can offer suggestions to my dilemma, I am all ears!
